the random trial, our trial.

HEEEEY!

After a long while, I'm back with a new post, and it's going to be soooo random. I just want to blog here cause it's barely quiet here, and I like it, and only a few knows that I have a blogspot. So uhmmm..

Everything that has happened to me lately was different, well almost everything yeah. Especially during my Granny's stay here in Davao due to her illness. It's called aortic aneurysm, and as per definition is a general term for any swelling (dilatation or aneurysm) of the aorta, usually representing an underlying weakness in the wall of the aorta at that location. While the stretched vessel may occasionally cause discomfort, a greater concern is the risk of rupture, which causes severe pain; massive internal hemorrhage; and, without prompt treatment, results in a quick death (Wikipedia, 2009).

Well, this illness is something that struck me, especially that it's pained my Lola and us as well, since we are her closest relative, her only family left, my mom, specifically. Anytime, sooner or later, Lola will be gone. What a real world. I thought that could only happen in the movies or in the TV soap operas I tend to watch sometimes. But time has come to tell us that it could possibly happen to anyone, even if that anyone means your relative, a close one. *BIG sigh..

Sometimes, I want to pour out everything how I feel about the situation. However, I still wonder how my mom still manages to be strong. I know. It's because she's getting strength from HIM, there up above us. And next to that factor is that, actually, Lola had been hard-headed also before, causing her to feel the consequence right now. Mom has done everything for Lola to follow but..yeah..
It's hard to say something like, DEATH you know but.. there will come a time for her that she'd be finishing her race.....


It's a sad thing.

But later, after being admitted twice in the hospital, I think she's feeling better now, she can eat better, talk a bit, smile super slightly, brush her teeth while on the bed. At least she can do those, a bit normal unlike those times in the hospital and those times at home that she would only drink water and eat food by sipping in a straw. At least.

Now, even if we know that it's not going to take a long time anymore, well..sometimes, I become nervous and afraid, but there are also times that I prepare myself for whatever to happen and accept everything.

We are still showing how much we love her by telling her that we do, kiss her, entertain her, talk to her with charming faces, comb her hair, helping our watcher in taking care of her, etc. :)

I always believe in GOD and the miracles He does for us. And a miracle can happen anytime to anyone. I would be grateful to HIM if He ever..ever.. give my lola a longer time with us. Anyhow, I still am thankful. And I love my Lola Gertrudes. We love her. :)